call_me_snake | TM Prompt: Fragile (Reply)

In relation to this conversation, the delivery of Hermoine and Liza's babies and the situation of Billy's and Hope's fathers.

Why am I not supposed to be fucking upset about not being able to have a kid? What, Snake supposed to be too macho to get hurt, too much of a tough guy to get down? Maybe it’s that Snake Plissken just looking for a reason to fight again. Or you going to throw me that fucking line that I’m too much of a criminal and shouldn’t bring a kid into my life? What can’t you bastards deal with anything getting to that sullen bastard Plissken?

Welcome to the fucking world. There are things that get to me. Good fucking goddamn... I’d like to see the rest of you deal. I want kids, I love being a father. Whole fucking world knows that. But the fuck if I can manage to get my girl knocked up. No, I deliver other people’s kids; watch all my friends get pregnant, get other people pregnant. All you son of a bitches expect me to sit back and be totally detached. Like any of the rest of you could do the same? Fuck that.

You don’t got to read what I do. The fucking reports about the shit they jacked us with in the military. You don’t sit around dealing with the fact all those fucking reports list 85% of the people survived the war you did are sterile. That those 85% went on half the missions I did, got half the exposure. Of course you bastards don’t know because you’re too busy pretending I’m just an angry bastard for no reason. Yeah, there I fucking said it. I might be sterile. Happy? Good. I’m still not.

You know what I’m really fucking sick of that too. I’m fucking tired of being treated like some angry bull that’s got no reason for anything except some fucking ego. Shove the ego bullshit and the pride too. If you were awake and actually looking at me you’d realize this isn’t fucking pride or ego. You ever sit back and watch everyone else live your dreams? Doubt it because if you did you might understand instead of just mouthing off about something you don’t understand. Might have a bit of sympathy for a friend instead of being an ass. Fuck, sorry I forgot, I’m Snake fucking Plissken the man nothing gets to. Should stop being jealous because it ruins everyone’s perceptions.

Fuck you all. I’m jealous and frustrated and pissed off that the rest of you are too busy making me out to be some heartless ego to even care what’s going on. I’m not apologizing for being jealous or angry. I shouldn’t have to bottle my shit up inside, none of the rest of you do. Yeah it pisses me off some gay guy knocked up a woman, just as fucking much as it pisses me off to deliver a heterosexual man’s baby or hear about a heterosexual man ignoring his fucking kids and dumping them. The frustration isn’t fucking gender so don’t even saddle me with that word that’s the biggest pile of bullshit I’ve ever heard come out of anyone’s mouth.

I suppose the rest of you don’t say nasty things when you’re pissed. No, of course not. You’re all goddamned goody two shoes and I’m a fucking dirty bastard. Stop your fucking hypocrisy. I’m tired of being treated like I shouldn’t ever get upset or that I’m doing it just to be mean. That why the rest of you get pissed off too? You do it just to be mean to people? Right. Like I was saying. Take your attitudes and shove them. I’m a man just like the rest of them. Everyone’s got limits and this is the end of mine. Live with it or don’t fucking talk to me.

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