Snake Plissken

Too much to drink, when's that?

Lost another friend today, few days ago actually. Can’t say if it’s better or worse that they still don’t know what the fuck happened. Don’t matter she was too young to die. Twenty is too young. Remember feeling invincible at twenty what bullshit that was.

Poor Jackie got the little one and now just lost her girl, bunch of bullshit. Days like these I get to wondering why so many young people die and a old fucking asshole like me coasts through life. I know what you’re going to say all that shit about having a family to look after. I do but so did she. Parents sometimes need more looking after than kids.

Don’t think I’ve ever seen a woman cry as much as Jackie was. Maybe I should’ve got mad when she hit me in the chest. They say women get crazy but I think I understand. Rose was about the same age as my little girl and I couldn’t imagine. I’d probably be even worse off. Drunken rage is a bitch of a thing. Especially when you don’t got anyone to blame. Just a dead daughter for no reason you can find.

Guess maybe it’s good I don’t know who’s responsible. Just be one more murder to rack up on my wrap sheet. Not that shit like that’s stopped me before. Tell you what I find out who was responsible and there’ll be hell to pay even if I got to get my ass sent to prison to get my hands on the cocksuckers.

Of all the bullshit, the fucking cops pulled me in trying to fucking pin it on me. I’m a lot of things but I don’t fucking slice my friends up. The fucking assholes thought I cut her up. Stupid fucks. Think it’s got to be a friend because it wasn’t a break in. Guess it’s got to be the guy with the patch. Ooo he looks dangerous and he’s got a gun. Fuck that! Stupid son of a bitches should be looking for someone who really did the shit.

Fucked up thing is I was supposed to go see her last week. She told me to wait and I did. Never should of. Had this fucking gut feeling said I should go. Never learn do I? Never know maybe she knew shit was coming and was trying to protect me or some bullshit. Always trying to tell me I couldn’t handle what she did. Fuck that. Baby if that’s what happened I’m giving you a kick in the ass next time I see you. I should’ve gone. Fuck if I hate that feeling. Fuck you hindsight.

Her funeral’s the morning of will_porter’s bachelor party. Promised Jackie I’d be there. Sorry if I’m late Will but I know you’ll understand. I’ll try to get there on time. The shit fucking sucks. Things been going good. Guess three years is too long for me to go without losing someone. The bullshit!

Here’s to you Rose Tyler where ever you are. You know girl if I find them they’ll live more hell then they put you through. Going to miss you baby.


Rose Marion Tyler
April 27th, 1987- May 19th, 2007
Miss you already baby.



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