Snake Plissken

Only my second anniversary and already I'm spending it alone. I've spent most of my morning wondering what she's doing where ever she is. Eight months she's been gone. I'm not sure if it feels longer or shorter than that but the calendar says it so I guess it is. Today the coke is hard to keep away from. That's why I didn't go to work. I know the dealer's there. I know I'd go and buy just to get rid of what I'm feeling. Sitting here drinking though. Guess that's better. Still miss her. Always miss her. How many more anniversaries will I spend without her? Our first one was almost like this. I was almost without her. Now I am and it's hell. Tomorrow needs to come along faster. Not that it'll be any better but at least I could cross off today and say I'm past it. I don't feel like this is fair to Bria. Can't be good for that poor girl to sit around knowing I'm depressed and missing another women. I know she knows what the score is but still can't be easy. I wish she was here with us. Everything would be so much easier.

Happy Anniversary to me. I need another drink.