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[call_me_snake]

I’ve seen a lot of people die in my time. Hell, everyone I used to know is dead. This time it is different. I got a friend with cancer. She’s had it since we met and I knew she was sick. Getting down to the wire now. Guess she hasn’t been feeling so good of late. Something about her dying is different. With her I know it’s coming. Wasn’t like that with everyone else I’ve lost. Makes it harder really. We don’t talk often and I feel like an ass for it. Seems the doctor’s told her she’s only got a few weeks. Funny thing is they told her she didn’t have long over a year ago. Keep thinking she’s going to fight it and beat the shit. I know that’s probably not the case but nothing says I can’t have the same faith she does in living. Been awhile since I lost anyone close. Suppose the last that wasn’t due to a gun or a war was my grandfather when I was a kid. Tell you the truth the gun makes it easier, doesn’t give you time to think about it but with her, I’d rather wait. Wouldn’t mind waking up to the surprise of her still being around for the next 5, 6, 10 years. She doesn’t dwell on it and I’m not going to either.

I’ll miss her when the time comes but until then I’m going to keep on believing she’s a superwoman that can beat out the cancer.

Comments

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry your friend is sick, Snake.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Thanks. Happens sometimes that people get sick and can't get better.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

I know. I've seen people be sick and die. Its scary.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

She's not afraid. She's a very strong woman so I try to keep things happy like she is. No sense in ruining what time she has.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

I never knew someone who knew they were going to die. Is it worse like that?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

It's about the same. Imagine it matters how people around you react.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

*looks down sadly*
I guess so. Is this when we have to be brave men?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Brave? Hmm... I think it's more being there and making sure in the time she has left she gets to do all the things she wants.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

But to do that do we have to be brave?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

No we have to be compassionate. There's nothing for us to be afraid of, death happens to everyone.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

*looks up at him, concentrating* I don't think I know how to do that.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Snake smiled. I think I know how you could.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

How?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I bet she'd love to get a surprise from you.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

She would? Even though she doesn't know me?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Yes. Who wouldn't like to get a surprise?

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

What should I send her? I could make her something?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

You could draw her a picture. I know she likes cats and the ocean, sunrises.

Snake smiled. You make her something and I'll send it to her.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

Okay. Can I write her a letter too?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Whatever you want. Her name is Analise Norman.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

That's a pretty name. *repeats it a few times to memorize it.* Is she a good person, Snake?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

She's sweet, beautiful, kind and always smiling. She's a wonderful person.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

*Billy nodded sadly*

Good people loose again. Its sad that she's sick. I wish I could know her.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I don't think she was always like this. Being sick has changed her alot.

Snake smiled. Maybe you'll get a chance. You could ask Mac if you can come with me to her party.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

She used to be a bad guy? I didn't know that people could change from bad guys to good guys or the other way around. That's confusing.


That would be cool! I'll ask Analise Norman if she wants me to when I write her the letter and then ask Mac.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

People can change. Sometimes the bad guys can change sides just like the good guys. Not everyone will. I think it depends how good or bad you are. Those who aren't too, too bad can become good again.


Snake smiled. Sounds good.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

But if you're really really good you can't become bad can you? But if you really good most of the time and bad sometimes what does that make you?


Neat. I'll get on it today! *grins*

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

It's not that easy. I wish it was.

Snake smiled. When you're done let me know and we can send it overnight so it will be waiting for her in the next morning.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

That's confusing. I guess there has to be a middle between good and bad. That's just so much to think about.


*grins*
Okay, I will. Do you think she will be happy when she gets it?

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

It's hard sometimes. Most people are in the middle, bad sometimes and good others. It's the really bad ones you got to watch out for and they're pretty obvious.


Snake smiled. I bet she will. You might want to tell her how you found out about her though.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

So if someone is really really bad and evil you can usually tell?

*Billy nodded*
I'll tell her you told me about her.

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

Usually.

Smirks. I think you're going to make her one happy woman.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

*nods* I'll remember that.

*beams*

Yay! She sounds like she deserves to be a happy woman!

[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

She really does.

[goldenkid.livejournal.com]

Good!

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[http://users.livejournal.com/_call_me_snake_/]

I gave Analise's mun a heads up.