For charloft Orange

[call_me_snake]

I've always liked orange. The fuck if I know why but since the military I dream in orange. The pain in my eye feels orange. Sounds fucked up that pain feels a color. They say it's because of the nerve damage to the eye. The fucking wires are crossed so I can feel colors and see pain. Orange is the only color I can feel. It's really fucked.

I don't wear orange. I don't feel compelled to buy orange things but I'm very conscious of the color. I like the color but seeing it triggers the fucking pain. It's all bullshit phantom pain. When the neurotoxin gets in your eye the first thing you notice is your eye sight gets this orange fucking haze. Then the pain starts like fucking hot orange in your brain. Since then, all my nightmares have been in shades of orange too. It's more than that. The gas in the sunrise turns every thing orange and purple. Explosions look orange and so does your skin from the reflected light. Whole fucking war looked orange sometimes. All I remember from some of the missions is thinking how fucked it was for the Siberian snow to look fucking orange as a glass of juice.

Really fucked that a color can get to you like that.