Now you see why it is so complicated, I want a nice guy who will love me look after me and be there for me, she is the one who likes the danger, the pain, the mischief. I used to be such a ssweet girl, and now I'm cursed.
You understand how I feel. What about your own. I have seen others of your kind. he sighs. I have learned to live with the other side to give up what I used to be. I suppose for me it was easier. Whe Apollyon came to me everyone I knew died. i had nothing left to remind me who I was.
Does race matter? This for Snake was true curiosity. he didn't know there was a difference.
He contemplates his own change before speaking.
Yes, you become a killer and then you learn to be something else after. What do you think happened to me when Apollyon made himself know? I became a terrorist, a murderer and then I learned what he truly is and slowly we are both coming to terms with it.
I wish I could tell you an easier way but that little girl is not you anymore. there is someone else waiting to be and you need to find her. she will be you and your wolf together not resisting each other.
He puts his arms around her. He was begining to regret ever being near her.
I am sure you are strong enough to find another way, one that I could not see. You must come to terms with her. I can't say much else about your situation but that neither of you will be happy until you stop fighting.
Tell me when you were a girl what did you want to be as a woman?
there is something very gentle about the way Snake is speaking to her. It is very differant then what she has seen in the past. Snake had silenced his other half, sent it to sleep for a time.
She sat down next to him, leaning her head on his shoulder. 'I wanted to be like my mom, I wanted to have magical powers, I wanted to help people, and I wanted to be like my dad, I wanted to write music, sing songs.
There are many types of magic. Do you think it is mundane to be able to transform into a wolf?
It was a serious question and it was obvious from the tone of his voice that he intended it to be serious. Snake chuckles.
I can't teach you to sing that I think is a skill you need a professional for but I could teach you to play the guitar if you want. He whispers. Or even that Hellacious flute my granmother made me learn to play.
Everything comes with a price for us it is the urge to kill, for a vampire it is the need for blood I am sure even mages have paid for the power they are given.
Why do you kill? Is it necessary to kill to survive?
Then why are you not out playing? There are places in this city that cater to the non-human, for lack of better words. I am sure that you would be welcome to play or sing there.
She hides her face in his chest, her fingers curling around his shirt and she begins to sob, everything has stopped the moment her father had died. Her mother had changed, became colder to everone apart from her daughter, happiness had been sucked from their lives.
Normal is a relative term. He smiles. For someone who has been through a supernatural change you are normal. We all have to deal with the new part. We all fight with it, fear it, are angered by it and eventually we all have to come to terms with it.
he sighs.
Do you think it is differant for someone who wakes up a vampire or a mage? Do you think they were suddenly ok with all of the changes in their life?
Snake sighs. Maybe? But perhaps there is a reason you were not. What if you were to become a wolf as part of destiny? There is no way of knowing what is yet left to do. What if there were to be a moment when your mother was confronted by something her magic could not stop but you could?
He turns her face up to his.
All I am saying is you have been given a gift that you have yet to find out why and perhaps you haven't accepted it. That does not make it any less of a gift nor does the fact that you have a differant gift make it less worthy.
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She will find someone else... Snake sighs sadly. or I will make her forget so she can.
Snake looks down.
I will do whatever it takes to make you happy but I can not give to you what you want. We have been throug this already.Snake states exasperated.
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Not me, her.
Not you, Him.
Now you see why it is so complicated, I want a nice guy who will love me look after me and be there for me, she is the one who likes the danger, the pain, the mischief. I used to be such a ssweet girl, and now I'm cursed.
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There are no others of my kind here, I have met one, he is a wolf, but not of my race.
*her chins wabbles slightly* If I give up that otherside, I give up the little girl my father loved, I stop being her, and I become a killer
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He contemplates his own change before speaking.
Yes, you become a killer and then you learn to be something else after. What do you think happened to me when Apollyon made himself know? I became a terrorist, a murderer and then I learned what he truly is and slowly we are both coming to terms with it.
I wish I could tell you an easier way but that little girl is not you anymore. there is someone else waiting to be and you need to find her. she will be you and your wolf together not resisting each other.
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I am sure you are strong enough to find another way, one that I could not see. You must come to terms with her. I can't say much else about your situation but that neither of you will be happy until you stop fighting.
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'I'm just a messed up little girl, have been for a very long time.'
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I think it is time to leave the messed up girl and find the beautiful, strong woman that I can see hiding.
he hugs her a little tighter.
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Tell me when you were a girl what did you want to be as a woman?
there is something very gentle about the way Snake is speaking to her. It is very differant then what she has seen in the past. Snake had silenced his other half, sent it to sleep for a time.
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I wanted a family...Normal stuff.
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There are many types of magic. Do you think it is mundane to be able to transform into a wolf?
It was a serious question and it was obvious from the tone of his voice that he intended it to be serious. Snake chuckles.
I can't teach you to sing that I think is a skill you need a professional for but I could teach you to play the guitar if you want. He whispers. Or even that Hellacious flute my granmother made me learn to play.
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'I can play the guitar, Piano, cello, and I can sing, but everything went to shit when I became a wolf.'
She shook her head, 'no everything went to shit when my father was murdered.'
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Why do you kill? Is it necessary to kill to survive?
Then why are you not out playing? There are places in this city that cater to the non-human, for lack of better words. I am sure that you would be welcome to play or sing there.
He pulls her closer.
My parents were murdered too.
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'I just wanna be normal.'
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he sighs.
Do you think it is differant for someone who wakes up a vampire or a mage? Do you think they were suddenly ok with all of the changes in their life?
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'I was made a wolf.' She shook her head, 'I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from being bitten.'
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So you feel worth less then the rest because you were not born a witch?
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He turns her face up to his.
All I am saying is you have been given a gift that you have yet to find out why and perhaps you haven't accepted it. That does not make it any less of a gift nor does the fact that you have a differant gift make it less worthy.
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Then isn't it time to clean up the mess?
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'Would you be able to forgive anything I did?'
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