"Right now, yes." She pulled her legs into a lotus position, buried the small of her hand on the soft of Shadow's back. "Lately, not really. I'll sleep with one eye open and I'll leave the courthouse after hours. I have bad days, Snake. I've had sleepless nights. It's easy to forget about the good ones. It's easy to forget progress has made way, however small. Right now I'll shoulder what I have to, so someday it is safe. I don't know any other way of living for me. Not any other way that would satisfy me. I understand if that doesn't make sense to you. If it seems stupid or, yes, naive. But it's who I am."